When Can I?

When can I feel soft like a red rose bud?

When can I see like a newborn child?

When can I smile fully without any sighs?

When can I laugh without feeling despair?

When can I breathe deeply in my free air?

When can I fly free like a white flage?

When can I draw dimensions regardless my age?

When can I paint colors to my world?

When can I hear sounds of life?

When can I glow in the full golden light?

When can I draw back the curtain that surrounds each other's lives?

And when, when can I love someone without any bounds?

**! SUciDe nOTe !**

Sitting here with unsettling emptiness

Penning down a suicide not

How far I ve reached in life

my fate has been cast in stone

Its easy to be a weak-willed

how difficult to be a little strong

Never wanted the emotions to flow in

how always they have been so wrong

What drives us to cut,to cut the life of LIFE

Am Overpowered by the statements people describe

No wonder did I find myself doing anything right

Aint no wonder it is, Who taught me all this...

You,the one who made me cry

You,the one who made me die unnatural deaths

Time and again...Time and again

What else could I have done...

So here I am penning the last lines

Holding you responsible for destroying my life

I wish I wish you go through all this

The heartache, the damped joys, the knife slits

I wish I wish you too write a better suicide note

Hold me responsible and give me a thanks vote

You made me your slave

I wish I wish people wont throw roses on your grave...

Let the grave be dark and deep

Put a slab from head to feet

Write on the stone above

Here lies the one who make others dead!

Waves Of Slumber

I am a girl of endless and battered sleep
of nightmares and dreary dreams
with hours of agony the tears last
of eyes full with flickering dark
Huh! I am only a fading star

enshadowed by repose,
scared of being disposed
mauled by the endless stream of words
staggled in the heavy crowd
with incarceration the defiance crept

I am just sleepless,tired,languished wretch,
drifting down the Waves of Slumber...